It can be a hard thing, to trust your journey. As I have learnt over the last few months, it isn’t about trusting the path or journey, as much as it is about trusting yourself.
We all have those moments of complete self doubt. When I was younger I did everything I was supposed to do. I studied and worked hard, went to university, completed my degree and got a good job. I worked up the ladder, demonstrated good work ethics, followed the rules.
In my personal life I was overwhelmingly happy. In my professional life I found myself on the corporate treadmill, moving too fast but maintaining momentum because falling scared me more than being unhappy. I filled the void with more stress and more work, assuming that I wasn’t happy because I wasn’t achieving.
Truth is, on paper I achieved well. I held management positions, and was even in a career where I could truly help others achieve. So why the disconnect? Because as much as I was following my path, supporting and guiding others, the system that I was in didn’t allow for my holistic approach to be utilised.
I was helping others, by giving so much of my physically and mentally, attempting to provide a holistic service I couldn’t really deliver on. The kicker… I never realised how much it was killing me until I finally gave in and changed my path.
Now – I am still in a management position, still helping people in a specific way. But I have the freedom to be me as well. That’s why I started Zoetic Dawn in the first place. A way to help others without being dictated by a management structure, having to worry about policies and procedures that I had no input into creating.
And here we are.
Truth is, facing up to the fact that something is missing is incredibly hard. Many of us have grown up in a culture we we tow the line and follow the rules. To do anything else is a failure. To turn our back on the system we have grown accustomed to is scary. Who will catch us if we fall? Who will guide us if we turn our back on the past? Who will ensure what we are doing is “right”?
Well my loves, the truth is, that you will.
Now is the time to remember the innate strength that stems from within. We all have it. That power, passion and drive to achieve our truest dreams. Some of us will want to have structure and support which is common today. Some of us will want to run free in the woods, roll in the grass and consume ourselves with nature. Some of us will dance the line in the middle. Where we have structure and freedom together. No one journey is wrong. The commonality between us all should be that we live a life that makes our soul sing.
Making the decision to sing can be daunting. It is about trusting that you will have your own back (you do!), trusting that the path will show itself just as it should (it will), and that no matter what, you are living in alignment with your own needs.
Only you know if you are. Only you know deep down what path you want to take. I could give you tip after tip of listening to yourself, shining your own light to guide you, this that and the other thing. But truthfully, trusting the path is about trusting yourself.
Some days that will be incredibly easy. Other days it will seem like the hardest thing in the world. Much like life, everything flows, everything ebbs. Everything changes.
Yes, there are “signs”, there are “tips”, there are “methods” that support you on your journey. And Yes, I will share some of these as time goes. But the first step to anything is trusting yourself.
At the end of the day, you are still here. You are still looking to improve, to live, to love. In my book, that’s a win. So celebrate that win and acknowledge that you have had your back to date… you are aren’t going anywhere.
You have your back. It’s time to start trusting that.